Kody Brown not sure how his family’s polygamous approach will survive in the future.
During this week’s episode of Sister Koner, Kody candidly shared how he is struggling to adjust to life after the divorce. In the previous episode, his third wife, Christine Brownfellow sister wives told Mary Brown, Janelle Brown and Robyn Brown that she is leaving Kody. (She publicly announced the news of breakup in November 2021 after 25 years of marriage.)
“My life is kind of in limbo because Christine is leaving and I don’t know what that looks like,” Kody, 53, said in a confessional.
“I’ve been kind of in the anger phase of the divorce, and so I haven’t dealt with it very well,” he continued. “I guess this construction project [on the family’s Coyote Pass property] with Janelle and Pete [is] one of those things to take your mind off the divorce frustration. But dude, I’m in the rage phase and every once in a while I just get tied up in knots over Christine leaving.”
Kody is only legally married to Robyn, 43. But he has considered himself spiritually married to his other wives, although Kody’s relationship with Meri, 51, has become more platonic over time.
Christine’s departure from the polygamous marriage has already caused turmoil for the Brown family. But later in the episode, most of the gang got together to attend a graduation party for Christine’s daughter Ysabel despite that. (The event took place two weeks after Christine told the wives of her split from Kody, and she hadn’t spoken to either woman since that conversation.)
According to Christine, the party “may be one of the last times we get together,” especially since she plans to move back to Utah. But given the circumstances, Robyn admitted she was “a little bit nervous” about going to the event, fearing the family would struggle to “be normal and natural and comfortable” around each other.
Fortunately for everyone, the children in particular enjoyed themselves at Ysabel’s graduation party. But Kody admitted that he still can’t shake off a “cloud of sadness,” saying it’s “because of the nuance of a breakup.”
“I don’t know what this will lead to,” he said in a written confession. “I don’t know what else is going to happen.”
Kody also acknowledged that he is “not in a good place” with many of his children, and said he has “strained relationships” with some of them. While he’s not “trying to be angry or hold them accountable” for where things are, he said he feels he doesn’t have the “respect” he believes he deserves from his children.
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“No, I’m not okay,” he said. “I’m in a funk. It’s such a loneliness combined with a bitterness with the whole family.”
Kody then admitted that he “lives in a delusional world where I wish Christine wouldn’t leave” and hoped he could “maintain an almost family relationship” with his ex-wife as well as their daughter Ysabel, who is moving to North Carolina after graduation to go to college. She will live with Janelle’s daughter, Maddie (brown) brushand her husband, Caleb Brush. The Brown family patriarch also acknowledged that he is now “struggling with a sort of regret mode.”
“It’s a strange thing to be abandoned,” he continued. “It’s made me question getting into polygamy. It’s made me question my faith and especially question religion. The message we had to the world about functional polygamy seems so dysfunctional now.”
Kody’s three remaining wives also questioned how Christine’s departure would ultimately affect the family’s future — and some of them took it a step further, wondering why Christine would leave in the first place.
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“How is this wrong? How does this not work for everyone?” Robyn said in a confessional. “Why isn’t this something worth fighting for? Why isn’t this something worth staying for?”
“Why can’t we work on the things we need to work on between each other? We’re not doing justice to our family, and we’re not doing justice to Ariella and Solomon and Truley, these little ones who really need to have family security, ” Meri told the cameras as Janelle added in a separate confessional: “It feels like there are storms brewing in the family. I don’t know what they mean, I don’t know what the outcome will be. I personally am not very optimistic that we are going to see many days like this [party going forward].”
Sister Koner sent on Sundays at 10pm ET on TLC.