‘I wanted it all to go away’: Gabby Logan reveals she suffered from suicidal thoughts after her brother’s death and describes path to ‘self-destruction’
- The sports presenter, 49, revealed that the tragic loss of her brother Daniel Yorath made her want to “take something that would make it all go away”
- Daniel collapsed and died on 25 May 1992 aged 15 from a heart condition just before he was due to begin a football career with Leeds United
- If you have been affected by this story, call the Samaritans on 116 123 or visit www.samaritans.org
Gabby Logan has revealed she suffered from suicidal thoughts following the sudden death of her brother.
The sports presenter’s younger sibling Daniel Yorath collapsed and died of hypertrophic cardiomyopathy in May 1992 when he was 15 and she was 19.
Reflecting on her heartbreak while writing about the tragedy in her new memoir, The First Half, Gabby, 49, admitted she had asked the chemist if she could ‘take something that would make it all go away.’
‘I wanted it all to go away’: Gabby Logan has revealed she suffered suicidal thoughts after her brother’s death, detailing path to ‘self-destruction’
Speaking about the writing process, she added to the Radio Times: ‘I thought, “I don’t know, I’ve got it in me to keep doing this”.’
Gabby has previously spoken of the ‘catalysmic’ long-term impact of her brother’s sudden death.
She said her family were ‘broken into a million pieces’ after Daniel fell and died while playing football with their father.
She said the traumatic incident ‘defined her youth’ and affected the way her family lived for the rest of their lives.
Loss: The presenter’s brother Daniel Yorath died of hypertrophic cardiomyopathy in May 1992 when he was 15 and she was 19 (pictured together and with their sister Louise)
Speaking on The Game Changers podcast in 2020, she said: ‘He died from a condition called hypertrophic cardiomyopathy, which is actually sudden death.
‘We had no warning. He had a congenital heart defect, which meant that outwardly and outwardly, his fitness was beyond anyone’s knowledge. He was in the top 0.00 percent.
She said that even now almost 28 years later, she and her family are still coming to terms with the “consequences” of Daniel’s tragic death.
Gabby continued: “Even if someone dies suddenly at 78, it feels young, but they’re 78 when a child dies so young, there’s obviously such a fallout among the whole family.
‘It defined the rest of our youth and has defined how the family has moved on from those years, and it leaves its mark in many ways.
‘It was a really tough time for everyone and to this day the consequences are still there.’
Struggles: Gabby also opened up about moving to London at the height of her TV career success and how it made her ‘self-destruct’ (pictured in 2000)
Elsewhere in her chat with Radio Times, Gabby also opened up about moving to London at the height of her TV career success and how it made her ‘self-destruct’.
She rose to fame when she first appeared on television in 1996 after being headhunted by Sky Sports.
She told the publication: ‘There was a bit of self-destruction. I didn’t abuse drugs [and] I wasn’t worried about becoming an alcoholic, but I wasn’t treating myself very well. I was not in positive relationships.
You can read the entire interview on Radio Times
Gabby explained that if she had not pursued therapy, she would not be married to her husband today.
She tied the knot with her husband Kenny Logan in 2001 and is mother to twins, son Reuben McKerrow Logan and daughter Lois Maya Logan.
The star said: ‘I don’t think I would get married. I would not have allowed myself to be in a nurturing relationship’.
Speaking about her father, former Welsh footballer Terry Yorath’s problems with alcohol, she said: ‘It really displaces your own sense of worth. For a long time, especially in my 20s, I felt like I wasn’t quite lovable enough. It is important to reach a point where you realize it has nothing to do with you.
You can read the entire interview at Radio Times.
If you have been affected by this story, call the Samaritans on 116 123 or visit www.samaritans.org
Family: She tied the knot with husband Kenny Logan in 2001 and is mother to twins, son Reuben McKerrow Logan and daughter Lois Maya Logan